Tears in His arms.....

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

 And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

 Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.


I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

 Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

 No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

 Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I have a song for every occasion.

It gets a little harder to say Goodbye to Him every time we have to part, each of us counting down the hours til next time we will be together.

Yesterday was particularly hard for me, while we were together yesterday, Sir surprised me with a collar. Not something I was expecting at all, not even something we had discussed.

Wearing that, being in His arms, then having to take it off and say goodbye to Him within hours was hard for me. 

I cried in His arms when He put it on me.

It was totally unexpected.

For the first time in my life, I understand the fascination of wearing a wedding ring.

Being proud to wear something that symbolizes someone else's claim on you.

It is not just something that is expected to be worn, or to wear, and I think many people just wear their wedding rings because it is 'the done thing to do', I know I did in the past. It was just something I did, not something that particularly meant what it should have.

And I guess this is an admission, that I didnt fully understand what having a collar meant until now.

I KNEW in my head, but until now I had never felt it. 

It is not just something to be worn when we play, not just something that is around my neck because it is expected to be.

It is a sign of our commitment to each other, His that He loves and protects me, and mine that I belong to Him, that I love Him, respect Him, trust Him and honour Him.

And I am very proud to wear His collar.